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Currently ugly crying over Jules (Fortnite)
#i need to stop projecting#she makes me so sad. especially her relationship with her dad (Midas).#can you really leave his shadow if his net worth is literally “all of it”?#it's half past midnight where I live and I have school tomorrow but I can't stop crying. over a fortnite skin.#literally I'm crying over my own interpretation of her story. brain why.#fortnite#jules fortnite#fortnite jules#fortnite skins#fortnite headcanons#Fortnite chapter 2 season 3
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Sunk Cost Fallacy
A >500 wrd draft lol
I meant to write more but work + life is a terrible mix so i’ll post it here☆(≧∀≦*)ノ
Also, I MAY add to this later on (if I don't forget). if it's interesting to y'all lemme know
Gow Atreus in pain & ruminating lol
It's been years. Years since he's been home; since he left too early. Too early to know how to dress a stump, at least.
It's the second time he's let an enemy get the better of him. The fact that it was einherjar that got to him makes it sting even more.
Odin is gone, so why are they still here? Spite, maybe? Atreus quips to himself, clenching his teeth, breathing labored.
You'd think a Jötunn warrior like Atreus would be used to blood. And he is! Just not... in copious amounts.
In Atreus's defense, the beasts he often face are not the kind that have blood. Creatures made of sand and stone are made of only that. And maybe a hateful spirit or two, but those don't have blood either!
Anyway, back to the (still bleeding) stump. Atreus whimpers as he ties a strap of leather around his thigh. To stop the bleeding, his father had told him after he had to reattach Atreus's hand.
That had hurt; a lot. Yet, the worst part was the waiting. (His hand had been violently ripped off after he had gotten too close to the valkyrie they were helping. It had been bloody, to say the least.)
Deep breaths, he reminds himself after he recognizes the sound of his hyperventilating.
The archer lulls his head back and gulps down air. His vision is starting to wane. Atreus scrunches his eyes and shakes his head.
Wake up.
He shakes and shakes his head. Then, resorts to slapping. Or, at least he means to. Apparently, thinking and doing are different things, now. Who knew?
"Loki?" he hears deeper into the cave- cave? Atreus tilts his head as he wonders how he got here. No; focus.
Atreus crawls toward the voice, to the impenetrable darkness before him.
Atreus, in the end, is unable to save the infected skin. He is left with an ever-throbbing stump that refuses to heal. His godly powers do not help even numb the pain. It hurts.
The warrior mourns his leg, yet nonetheless gets creative.
"Ah!" he means to feign. key word: means. The scream of pain had been real. As had been the fall. "shit, shit, shit!" he whines as he tried to drag his body into the darkness.
The feign had meant to draw out any burrowers to the surface. Instead, he had leaned too much weight on his, newly twisted, ankle, causing him to lose balance.
"shit, shit, shit!" he whines as he tried to drag his body into the ever-present darkness.
#post GoW: Ragnarök#god of war#atreus#kratos#gow#writing#wounds#incomplete#unprepared#Hurt atreus#i NEED to stop projecting#everytime i think of kratos and atreus i cry#ive never posted drafts on here before#tips??
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happy halloween! 🎃🐈⬛👻🐇
#i just wanted to draw emu as a jiangshi .#project sekai#pjsk#prsk#emu otori#proseka#tsukasa tenma#nene kusanagi#rui kamishiro#wxs#wonderlands x showtime#polysho#enjoy halloween everynyan unfortunately i have to go work a shift. i thought abt dressing up for fun when i get back#but 1 im lazy 2 i dont live alone and its my luck that somebody ends up knocking when im in the middle of being dressed like a clown#so i would rather not risk it. idk how people get into cosplay just for photoshoots/videos i dont have that conviction .#but halloween con was lots of fun and i got to see friends and trade candy so i enjoyed my celebration already. ^_^#also STOP BEATING THE SHITNOUT OF ME IDEK IF I CAN BOOO BACK FROM A SIDE BLOG. YOURE KILLUNG ME#once again some random guy will be hittimg you back. boo#to end my tags i am going to be pissed off because i cannot draw well rn and its KILLING MEEEEEE#im art blocked as hell and mad about it. my zines....#its so annoying like with my personal art its whatever but people spend Money on zines i need to get good.#its been like over a week so i thought inwould be free. sigh#i often draw emu fiending off of tsukasa. the way things should be. amen#also inthink rui would love to go all out for costumes but he got busy modding a tshirt launcher to shoot candy and forgot abt his costume#so hes a tuxedo cat. he thinks hes so funny
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They then spent the rest of the night talking about Hot Wheels modifications and the flavor Blue Raspberry. Until Tails fell asleep by accident and Sonic had to carry him to bed.
Swap AU belongs to @foolnamedjoey!
I love this au so much you have no idea.
#miles tails prower#tails the fox#sonic the hedgehog#sonic fanart#Clawing and scratching my pillows- I NEED MORE OF THIS AU!!!#SWAP AU'S ARE SO MUCH FUN!!#GRRR I LOVE THE FRECKLES JOEY ADDED TO SONIC'S DESIGN!!!#Yet another artist I completely forgot to follow- dang it.#I really should make fan art of other au's/ fanfic's I enjoy- I've been wanting to make a Skimming drawing but kept getting sidetracked#Speaking of side tracked- I completely stopped all the projects I was doing just to doodle this lmao.
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welcome to another ruxxifystars polyneed series PLEASE GET YHEM AWAY FROM ME I CNAT STOP DRAWING THESE STUPID IDIOTS /AFF
#fanart#project sekai#project sekai art#prosekai#prsk fa#hatsune miku colorful stage#pjsk#saki tenma#honami mochizuki#ichika hoshino#shiho hinomori#leoneed#polyneed#POLYNEED PLEASE SAVE ME#i cant stop drawing them#i hope they explode#i hope they die#slash affectionate#leo need
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touhouvania designs are such eye candy
#yuyuko saigyouji#marisa kirisame#touhou#touhouvania#koumajou densetsu#東方project#my art#OK I need to stop drawing#i need to study and work on my dissertation arghh
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Sirius *show a weird and ugly animals pic to Regulus*: Look
Regulus *eyes immediately shining and taking his brother's phone to get the name and make research*
Sirius *looking at James*: Told you he would like it.
James *confused*: But this animal was so ugly??
Sirius *laughing a bit*: Uglier it is, better Reggie love it.
Sirius *stop laughing and looking at James with a smirk*: Probably why he love y-
James: Fuck off Pads!
#Reggie just like ugly animals more than humans#100% he love the way blobfish look in their NATURAL HABITAT#I need to stop projecting myself in the Marauder era character#(I will never stop projecting myself in the Marauder era characters)#marauders#regulus black#james potter#sirius potter#sirius black#regulus and sirius#black brothers#jegulus#potter brothers
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Started a new book series, and has been a journey...an Odyssey, if you will.
#poorly drawn odyssey#the odyssey#Athena#telemachus#penelope#odysseus#calypso#I also drew Phemius the bard and Antinous the leader of the suitors but I'll hold onto those for a while longer.#The Odyssey has been on my reading list for ages and I finally decided to just dive into the Robert Fagles translation.#*nobody* ever talks about how damn funny the Odyssey is. Oh my god. I have been howling.#The poor bard doomed to keep playing for this unending feast. The most unwilling court jester.#Penelope being introduced by her crying about how much she 'hates this song'.#And Telemachus is the goodest lad. The OG protag to set about on his heroes journey.#He is kind! He is soft! He yearns for adventure and finding out the truth! He wants to get back at his bullies!#He even gets a companion named Mentor. THE original mentor! Who is *totally* not a god by the way. Just a guy.#Not to mention how much Odysseus gets hyped up only for his first appearance to be him sobbing non-stop.#Honestly I was mostly motivated by the need to do research for a personal project but I've been having the best time.#I sincerely doubt my current audience has any overlap with classic Greek literature but expect a few more PD-Odyssey posts.#(Yes - I am familiar with Epic the Musical; this is not fanart of that adaptation).
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it’s senior year and you hate ellie williams. you hate the way she talks to you- the semi-texan drawl that comes out every time she teases you, grating against your ears and drawing heat to your face. you hate the way she cuts her hair- the fluffy layers of the mullet she cuts herself over the sink, so damn soft and attr— no. fuck. what are saying? you hate her, her and the way she stares at you every chance she gets: in class as you get into another fight with the teacher over yet another assignment set on a bullshit misogynistic book, from her bike as you avoid her gaze after school ends for the day and slam the door of your car so hard the tires bounce, from across the street in town as you accidentally meet her stare and tear your eyes away, praying desperately for the evil eye to land upon her. you hate her big dumb combat boots- the huge clumpy soles and ugly laces and the logo of a riot grrrl band you introduced her to stickered on the side, beginning to peel away from the surface. (really, you’re more pissed about the sticker than the boots.) you hate the way she reads your mind- god, you want to hit her. you hate her so much it makes you sick, it even makes you rhyme- “stop looking at me, you prick! suck my dick!” screamed angrily across the parking lot when you catch her staring. you hate the way she’s always right, like when she said she knew a little part of you found her smoking attractive even though you criticised her for it. you hate it when she lies- like when her head was squeezed between your thighs and her mouth was licking a firm stripe up to your clit and she swore you were heaven and she would never do anything to hurt you. you hate it when she makes you laugh- her flippant jokes at everything that make your lips tilt against your own will, heart racing faster as you bite back giggles. you hate it when she makes you cry. prom. what jesse said. the money. how she was paid to date you. ellie’s guilty face. how it was all a fucking act- but the worst part? is that even now, after you’ve sworn off ellie williams for good, you hate it when she’s not around. and that the thing you really hate is that after everything went down, she didn’t even call. but mostly, you hate the way you don’t hate her— not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.
#well. sorry for this. you can all shout at me when the full fic happens. i need to stop starting new projects.#elliewilliams#ellie williams x reader#ellie williams smut#the last of us#ellie williams#ellie williams blurb
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Kinda want to write a Spock POV post-fal-tor-pan fic where Spock sees Jim and is instantly whammed with the fact that he's in love with him, but still has no idea why or what that means, so he just goes around with a knot of love tangled in his mind, utterly baffled as to why it's there or how to figure it out. He can't ask the kolinahr adepts, because it feels un-vulcan, so instead he's just. confusedly pining the entire time.
Jim smiles sappily at him and Spock's like "My Heart Is Beating Faster. Why Is My Heart Beating Faster. There Is No Cause For My Heart To Be Beating Faster. Do I Have Tachycardia."
Spock, to McCoy: Doctor, is there history of heart disease in my family?
Bones, suspicious: Yes? Why? (already surreptitiously scanning Spock w/ a tricorder)
Spock: I have noticed concerning irregularities in my heart beat. They occur primarily around Admiral Kirk.
Bones, freezing: Repeat that for me, Spock?
Spock: I have noti-
Bones: No, not that, the next bit! Where they happen!
Spock: Ah. Around Admiral Kirk.
[FIVE MINUTES LATER]
Spock, annoyed: Doctor, cease laughing. I fail to understand what part of my medical condition you find so amusing.
Bones, still wheezing with laughter: Don't - don't you worry your little head about it, Spock. You're not sick, that's the important thing. (interrupts himself by laughing again) You'll (wheeze) figure it out eventually.
(Spock, disgruntled, gives up on him and leaves.)
(McCoy keeps laughing for another ten minutes.)
#*sprays myself with water* stop. bad fool. no starting new projects until you have finished at LEAST two old projects#me taking the inherent angst of “post-resurrection memory loss” and saying “but what if we get silly with it”#he's been alive for two blinks and doesn't know what love is but boy howdy is he feeling it#probably to keep the lighter tone we can assume that kirk doesn't actually realize that spock doesn't remember that they were married#he's just like “my husband is alive again!!! <3<3<3”. he is unaware that spock has zero knowledge OR that spock is pining pathetically#so kirk is being Soft and supportive to spock knowing that he needs time to come back to terms with his emotions while spock is ??<3??#kirk thinks that they're on the same page about mending their relationship. while spock has no idea there WAS one Or that he Wants one#spock: jim has invited me to dinner once again. my heartrate increased due to both the invitation and admiral kirk's proximity.#the meaning of this is unclear. i may be ill. i have no desire to limit my interactions with the admiral however. therefore i shall attend.#kirk: i'm going on a date with my husband!!!!! <3<3<3 who is cute and flustered all the time because his mind is a little fuzzy!! <3<3#tos#star trek movies#tsfs#star trek#star trek the original series#star trek the search for spock#james t kirk#spock#spirk#k/s#bones mccoy
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staged suicide
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Almost
#zutara#atla#zuko#avatar the last airbender#katara#zutara fanart#Wip#First page of three is done!!!#Won't be sharing until I have the whole thing but I'm. So. Close!!!!!!!#It's been ages since I started this project omg#But it's worth it#Hopefully I'll get the chance to finish it tomorrow... Won't be making any promises tho#I've missed you guys and I can't wait to share this with you#Anyways I know it's ZK month (and all the content has been WONDERFUL so far) but I won't be participating. Sorry about that.#Working with prompts is such an amazing creative exercise but I know myself good enough to be certain that I'll never get past the first...#... prompt without coming up with seven different AUs and I can't deal with more of those right now lol#Like I've got this Blue Spirit! Katara and Painted Lady! Zuko AU on the works since last week or so. And more lore for the og BS/PL spirits#And also this S3 canon divergence AU... And another one... And another one...#And I need to work on them at my own rhythm otherwise I'll go nuts#So uh#Yeah#Love u all and I hope I'll get to share this one soon (if only to start on yet another comic. I've got ideas for two of them. Yay)#Dema out#(Sorry for the rambling I'm just anxious)#(Don't know why but I stopped caring a long time ago)
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the narcissist fools himself
#IM GETTING A BAD GRADE IN POLYSHO WEEK WHICH IS NORMAL TO FEAR AND POSSIBLE TO ACHIEVE.#project sekai#pjsk#prsk#proseka#polysho#polysho week 2024#tsukasa tenma#emu otori#nene kusanagi#rui kamishiro#domt scroll dowm to when i pisted the sketch a year ago actually. should i delete that#Nah who give a fuck#They dont need to know that i drew this over a year ago and touched it up c all of my other drawings for this theme sre too ambitious#I cant draw a fucking merrygoround. Who am i kidding.#I posted this now so i can stop adding minute gradient maps to it for a 0.2 percent color difference. must sleep. farewell.#more polysho week to come. the day 5 prompt.. well. heh#also FUCK i want to do day 4 too bc i love the yokai theme but thats Today and i AAAAAHG ok stop itz GOONIGHT.#funny drawing for the guy that turned romeo and juliet into fortnite. stop crying and hop on duos
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like realistically i very much doubt they would make ena unaccepting of mizuki's identity (i'm almost certainly just projecting when i say i'm afraid of that)
i feel like what actually is going to happen is that mizuki somehow gets outed by her classmates
considering mizuki seems to be wearing a regular shirt as opposed to their usual clothes/uniform and the detail the jp fan base pointed out of the debris flying away possibly being from fire, her fem uniform/clothes/accessories might be getting burned by her bullies or someone adjacent
the card is also called "what has been lost" possibly referring to these items since they are dear to mizuki
(it's not letting me link the tweet but i really like @/hosh1tt 's take on this theory:
guys what if they do burn her clothes and then ena comes in to defend her screaming at them but the classmates ask her if she really knows who mizuki is and then mizuki makes this face as they out her to ena)
#oh my i need to stop talking about this someone stop me#staying up for leaks sorry past me that tried to fix our sleep schedule#mizu5#mizuki akiyama#ena shinonome#project sekai
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pocky day! saki tenma is so stupid. more than very stupid actually.
#project sekai#prosekai#fanart#prsk fa#hatsune miku colorful stage#pjsk#leo need#saki tenma#shiho hinomori#honami mochizuki#ichika hoshino#pocky day#pocky game#WHY ARE THEY SO STUPID I CANT#:((( i hate polyneed can they stop#im not normal about them#stupid lesbians
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jon val jon or something
#jean valjean#les miserables#les mis#meme#no bc i just read the part where FIRST of all he's 'so happy his conscience began to bother him' and immediately goes 'can't have that'#and then he 'lived in the backyard like a dog' OF HIS OWN HOUSE WHILE COSETTE IS IN THE MAIN BUILDING#and jvj my beloved i am obsessed with you king but it is SO unhealthy to intentionally deprive yourself just so someone else can tell you..#'no no don't do that you need to take care of yourself' like bro i know you want to be nurtured and have someone prove their love for you#but it's really not great that the only way you keep your room at a liveable temperature and eat good food is when cosette is making you#i say this without judgement bc that was me once too but good GOD man your identity cannot be her!!!!#and stop with the preemptive self-inflicted harm!!! stop with the self-protective and yet -destructive distancing!!#you're only doing that because you want someone to tell you to stop!!!!!#alternate chapter title: in which an old man finds himself at home among the youth (2014 tumblr)#ANYways all this to say jvj is a projectable 10000% and i hate him because i love him because i hate that version of me bc i love me#or: SHUT UP AND BE LOVED YOU SILLY OLD MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#kay has a party in the tags#kay can i just catch my breath for a second#kay is a classical literature nerd#my meme
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